Draw me out

July 06, 2004

Sometimes I feel stupid talking to you because it often crosses my mind that you might not exist. But I do talk to you, and maybe that means I believe in you enough for the moment.

I need to ask you something.

Someone at church the other day asked you to "draw our worship from us". It really helped me think about it. I always just stand there in church trying to sing, trying to worship, to feel and I don't get anywhere. I don't know what worship is, and I can't make myself feel it.

But God I know that our whole life is supposed to be worship, and I want that to be what my life is like, but I can't do it.

Please would you draw my worship from me? Take my life - my stuff, my friendships, my work and make it yours. Draw out of all that a life of worship to you. I want to do it, but all I can do is get up, drink tea, drive somewhere, whatever. I can't make it worship, but I want to live inside you, and I know you can help. Will you?